Forever in My Heart
A Dedication to Topper and Chloe
I have shared the kitties that I have now, but I felt it only right to share the kitties that are no longer with me. I will always love them, as they are forever in my heart
How you behave toward cats here below determines your status in Heaven. - Robert A. Heinlein
"I'm Still Here"
by your bed last night,
I came to have a peep
I could see that you were crying
and found it hard to sleep.
I purred to you so softly,
as you brushed away a tear.
"It's me, I haven't left you,
I'm fine, I'm well, I'm still here."
I was close
to you at breakfast..
The day is over, I smile...
you yawn, and say,
"Goodnight ... God Bless,
see you in the morning."
When the time is right for you
to cross the brief divide
I'll rush to greet you...
we'll stand side by side.
I have so many things to show you..
There is so much for you to see..
be patient ... live your journey out..
and then, come home to me..
Sweet Topper. He is no longer with me and I do so miss him. You see, Topper
was the first cat that was only my cat. We had many family pets but they
belonged to me, my Mom and my step Dad. When I first laid eyes on him I knew
that I had to have him. I was so excited, just like a Mom who is expecting her
first child. Topper was my baby, my best friend and my constant companion. Oh
how I miss him so!
Topper was cute as the dickens and a very big boy. At his peak weight he was 20 pounds. He always loved to sleep on my chest so you can imagine that it was a bit uncomfortable for me. He had the softest fur, the cutest ears that were always perked up, wondering what was going on I would think and eyes that made me think of emeralds.
He was a quiet one and kept to himself a lot but he was always there for me and ready to have some snuggley time together. He got along great with other animals and I never had to worry about a fight ensuing. If he was bothered by the other, he would just keep his distance and send out a message to stay away.
Since Topper was my cat, he went wherever I went. Unfortunately, there were times I had to leave him with my parents. I hated those years. But once I got my own place in Connecticut, I told him that where I go, you go and that is the way it was until he died.
Topper was my first baby to come into my life and the first to leave me, but I was blessed with having him for 16 and a half years. That is a blessing in itself but more of a blessing when I almost lost him at the age of 10 due to a urinary blockage. I still have not gotten over losing him and my heart still aches. The hardest thing for me is watching Zena and seeing her do the Topper pose. That is where he would cross his front two paws. How I wish I could see him do that again.
Topper is gone and my heart still aches. I wish that he could have lived for many more years but that was not possible as he got cancer. The hardest thing I had to do was to put him down. It was the hardest thing but the kindest thing I could do for my best friend. Gone from this earth is he, but he is forever in my heart.
Sweet forever kitty
Leaving me is what you did
Memories I keep
My Chloe's Poem
kitty, that is what you were,
So small, so sweet, with the softest fur
And always willing to give a reassuring purr.
beside me is the place you'd like to be,
Looking so cozy for all to see
And keeping me safe and sound as you watched over me.
beside me so now I must grieve,
Wondering each day why you did leave
And not even a warning did you give me that eve.
go on even though it is without you,
Thinking of you is all that I do
And each day my heart aches and how it cries for you too.
and well is what you are feeling now,
After having taken your last bow
And lasting imprints I have of your sweet angelic meow.
My Topper's Poem
No one can tell me how it
feels or how it hurts now that you are gone.
No one can tell me it will get better or it will get easier in time.
No one can tell me what pain I feel or what sadness I feel that you aren't here.
I never knew about losing
until you passed.
I never knew about loving until I had you.
I never knew about heart ache until that April day.
I do know how I miss the feel
of your fur against my skin.
I do know how I yearn to hold you in my arms.
I do know how quiet each moment is without your sweet purr.
No one knows if we will truly
be together again.
No one knows if we will get over the pain.
No one knows if we will be able to mend.
But I do know how lucky I was
to have you.
I do know you are my forever friend.
I do know you are still with me each and every day.
And I will always know how much you loved me and I loved you.
Here's hoping we are together again!
From Your Cat
Remember me always, but do not grieve for me too long.
I have tried always to comfort you in times of sorrow,
and have made every effort to add joy to your life.
I never wanted to cause you pain.
Peace for me is certain now, and I suspect I will have
eternal sleep in the earth
I have loved so well.
Please, after your period of grieving for me,
make room in your heart for another.
You are the kind of human being that should
always have a friend like me to love.
Your kind and gentle heart should not be wasted on my memory for too long.
Give your love to another.
I know your new friend will never take my place,
because we had something very special.
You loved me very much and I loved you.
My spirit will always be with you,
and no matter how deep my sleep,
my grateful heart will always be purring for you.